Further In I Go

There is no exit 

So further in I go 

Further into the fire 

Deeper into the water 

Derailing another train 

Won’t get mine back on track 

If I lose my mind

I may not get it back 

So just deal with it.

The self I knew 

Has left the scene 

Who is this 

Strange new me 

She’s going to be 

Stronger

Better 

Higher 

Sexier 

Greater 

Smarter 

Funnier 

Finer 

I think. 

Honestly, I’m not sure 

Who she is 

Or who she will be 

The worldly things 

Don’t seem to do it 

For her 

She’s too damn deep 

Too serious 

Too sensitive 

Too empathetic

Too fearful 

And too sad 

I wish she could just have fun.